Reflections

Contentment

Contentment: ‘In a state of peaceful happiness/ happiness and satisfaction’

My understanding of the meaning of contentment was to be happy with what you have however, it was skewed towards ‘just making do’ with whatever cards one is dealt with. I’ve only recently realised this is not only impractical, but it doesn’t make any sense.

This understanding of contentment gave way to a course of resentment and a side of comparison that literally robbed the joy out of me. I didn’t see it that way of course, I just felt I was being dealt a poorer hand and resigned myself to just deal with what I had. I was ‘making do’.

So now confusion AND frustration are also in the mix and there is no peace within me because I want more of ‘what they have’. What I was already blessed with was not enough for me. Instead of nurturing and enjoying the fruits of my own garden I was dreaming up ways to include elements that were probably unsuitable for its habitat. Even though they seem perfectly reasonable it just doesn’t happen to be the natural order. Which is fine!

Overthinking is an enemy in SOOOOO many formations.

Synonyms for the word contentment include: peace, satisfaction, comfort, pleasure and gratification.

My prior understanding of the word contentment bred a dark cloud that was limiting and felt like being content was ‘settling’. When in reality it gives the freedom to explore, enjoy and expand! The difference is, in this way you won’t be doing it out of distaste, fear or judgement. It’ll be love.

If you replace the word ‘content’ with ‘peaceful’ in the following scripture it should help this to make more sense:

Philippians 4:11-13 Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

Reflections

Your cracked eyesight is not my business

I had a revelation last year. Caring in vain is dumb, and I’m clinically dumb for subscribing. Loose here!

As a free woman I looked back and let go of many of my worries and wanted to slap myself up for taking them on. KMT, *cuts eye*.

Worry makes the heart sick and doesn’t add a single better day to our lives. Next thing you know, you’re spiralling with a million questions like: Am I likeable enough? Approachable? Banter strong enough without being over confident? Should I be this funny? Blah Blah crap blah.

Begin to realise that someone’s reaction to you, or lack thereof, may have little or nothing to do with you personally. If you’re emitting vibes which aren’t reciprocated this isn’t something for you to agonise over. Of course this makes sense regarding strangers, if this is your friend then that’s a conversation. We shouldn’t take on the weight of everyone else then wonder why our shoulders are heavy. Furthermore no one is obliged to you and vice versa.

So instead of wondering if you fulfill the needs of the crowd, wonder if you’ve fulfilled the needs of yourself.