Reflections

A look back on our coonery

A rush of old tweets from influencers have once again resurfaced in which they made colourist remarks. Granted many of them have evolved and are sorry for the hurt they maybe didn’t realise they caused seven years ago, but unfortunately the devaluing of black bodies has not been obliterated.

Remember when ‘blick’ was a common slang word to describe very dark skinned people? I used to say it too and it was all fun and games, until one English lesson in year eight. Our white teacher furiously declared that anyone who used that word, no matter the colour, would be punished as it was racist and had roots in the apartheid. That word has mostly gone out of fashion but it did make me think.

I am clearly a dark skinned woman and thankfully I cannot remember a time when I have been directly berated for my colour. Looking back however, I can see where I could have been overlooked. I used to be glad that I wasn’t made a target like some of my darker skinned classmates and that thinking alone is problematic. Worse than that, our ignorance towards each other made it possible for a white boy to be brave enough to embarrass another pupil in front of everyone! Although we didn’t make a lot of noise about this sort of BULLYING in those days, it doesn’t discount that the victims were greatly affected. If I could redo my school years with the person I am today I would confidently call people out. It doesn’t make sense to blame that way of talking on age. A teenager knows what words and phrases have the potential to be horrible, it’s almost a disservice to think you were that dumb. Yes we say stupid and hurtful things in our immaturity, but it’s better we realise that the way we thought was wrong rather than use age and society as an excuse.

Cancel culture and constant rehashing of the past, especially for those who have evolved for the better, isn’t profitable. There is no need to constantly say sorry and be at the mercy of the world. Nevertheless there are always consequences for our actions and human nature will make sure you don’t forget it.

Reflections

Lookin’ like a whole SHNACK after isolation!

I hope we’re all adhering to the self isolation orders and keeping our spirits up in the meantime! If you have taken a walk outside you’ll notice how calm it is. Countless buses have zoomed by with no passengers, and people are quick to give you a wide berth if there is a possibility of collision.

As there is no reason to do up GLAM, I assume the majority of us are keeping hair in chunky twists or plaits and accepting defeat that our trims won’t be sharp. Some people are still beating their face with finesse to do Insta videos or to join House party chats, that’s a mission I don’t understand. I have no beef in you catching me in my head scarf or house hair lol. However I am subscribing to keep myself up physically during this time. I’m yet to take my home bound gym life serious but in terms of moisturing and deep conditioning I’m all over it. I plan to step out of isolation as if it served me well! All dewy and glowing! I am also a Christian, so I need to apply the same energy. As much as I want to glow physically I should and want to glow spiritually.

I feel this will be a wheat from the chaff moment. It is very easy to rely on Sunday’s to feed your faith, making plugging into the church community without the physical act of going to church dismissive. If anything we need to keep an extra eye on ourselves; making sure we are spending personal time in devotion, logging into virtual Bible studies etc. The same way I won’t achieve my dewy glow without keeping up my routines, is the same way I won’t be a Christian that makes sense if I don’t upkeep myself spiritually.

This only just occurred to me, as I realised my room for excuse is so minimal. Therefore, if I grow into a spiritual dry toe that’s my own business and that is not what I plan to rule over. I do not desire to be eternally passive so I will have force myself in to help defeat laziness.