Reflections

My hearts trust challenges

Trusting God with EVERYTHING feels like a big ask. If you’re anything like me you have to renew it every couple of weeks. I’ll realise that I’ve grabbed at a situation I had just let go of and then release it like a hot potato. Most times. I’m getting better lol.

I suppose then our desires aren’t only limited to the things we personally want to do but the things we want total control of. I desire to be in charge and sure, so I don’t want to give that control to God as easily as I think. So the challenge for my heart is to honestly believe and TRUST that He has it covered.

Reflections

Deffo self sabotage

For the longest time I’ve struggled with the prospect of being uncomfortable, as in I’d rather not do something in case the possible downsides come true.

I’ve sometimes convinced myself not to drive somewhere in case I make a wrong turn and the idea I had planned morphs into a version I wasn’t prepared for. It’s like a pang of over analytical anxiety paralyses me till I reason that the worst case scenario will be my fate.

I’ve never viewed this as self sabotage, rather avoiding extra stress. Of course this net can only be cast so far and after all the reconciling you realise it simply won’t stretch to every situation.

The long and short of it is that ‘what if something bad happens’ can’t rule your life. Stop reasoning with the worst case scenario in an unwise manner. When you push through the statements of fear you’ll realise it was never a lion before you but rather a mouse. And even if it turns out to be a lion you can still boss it!