Reflections

Deffo self sabotage

For the longest time I’ve struggled with the prospect of being uncomfortable, as in I’d rather not do something in case the possible downsides come true.

I’ve sometimes convinced myself not to drive somewhere in case I make a wrong turn and the idea I had planned morphs into a version I wasn’t prepared for. It’s like a pang of over analytical anxiety paralyses me till I reason that the worst case scenario will be my fate.

I’ve never viewed this as self sabotage, rather avoiding extra stress. Of course this net can only be cast so far and after all the reconciling you realise it simply won’t stretch to every situation.

The long and short of it is that ‘what if something bad happens’ can’t rule your life. Stop reasoning with the worst case scenario in an unwise manner. When you push through the statements of fear you’ll realise it was never a lion before you but rather a mouse. And even if it turns out to be a lion you can still boss it!

Reflections

Actually, diminishing trauma is irresponsible

I watched Menace to Society and was practically heartbroken by the end.

The films tells the story of teenagers who spend the summer getting in trouble with the law, brutalised by police, jacking people, jumping others and living because they feel there is nothing to lose. Often films like this get branded as irresponsible as the media feels they ‘glorify gang life’. More than ever I see the lie here. Many times in the film the characters call out police brutality, prejudice and the general theme of hopelessness doesn’t make what they go through seem appealing. Instead it is a view of how the forgotten live and die. It is NOT an aspirational fantasy.

Furthermore it’s clear to see that Black trauma gets diminished. The same people who look down on the story would do anything to not live such a life without choice. It’s hard to convince oppressed people of change when their world has convinced them otherwise.

So don’t be confused as to why we said the shutting down of Blue Story in cinemas was a racist move.